Rupi Kaur – Milk and Honey

“you were so afraid
of my voice
i decided to be
afraid of it too”


Milk and Honey – Rupi Kaur #2

I started reading Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur and I’m getting goosebumps. I love every single poem and during the next few weeks, I’ll extract the ones I liked the most and tell you why I chose them.

the therapist places
the doll in front of you
it is the size of girls
your uncles like touching

point to where his hands were

you point to the spot
between its legs the one
he fingered out of you
like a confession

how’re you feeling

you pull the lump
in your throat out
with your teeth
and say fine
numb really

– midweek sessions

This poem made me shiver. It’s raw, it’s painful, it’s child abuse. Not by one man, but by many “uncles” who like to touch. The pain is almost visceral as the words picked to describe it pop up like massive bold spots. “teeth”, “lump”, “fingered out”, “numb”.

Carolyn Knight wrote a book called Working With Adult Survivors of Childhood Trauma that states:

“Trauma, by definition, is the result of exposure to an inescapably stressful event that overwhelms a person’s coping mechanisms.” – United States Department of Health and Human Services

She points out that an important aspect of an event (or pattern of events) is that it exceeds the victim’s ability to cope and is therefore overwhelming. A child should not have to cope with abuse, and when abuse occurs, a child is not equipped psychologically to process it. The adults in their lives are meant to be role models on how to regulate emotions and provide a safe environment.

Note: If you suspect that you or a loved one is suffering from child abuse, please report it to your local Child Protection Services – or the police, if a child is in immediate danger. The longer that abuse continues, the higher the risk of causing severe symptoms.


Book Reviews

Sadie – Courtney Summers

In our last episode, I introduced you to the two girls at the center of this podcast, Mattie Southern and Sadie Hunter. Mattie was murdered, her body left just outside her hometown of Cold Creek, Colorado. Sadie is missing, her car found, abandoned, thousands of miles away, with all her personal belongings still inside it. The girls’ surrogate grandmother, May Beth Foster, has enlisted my help in finding Sadie and bringing her home.

Sadie hasn’t had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she’s been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water. But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie’s entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister’s killer to justice and hits the road following a few meagre clues to find him.

Book Reviews

Cat – V. C. Andrews (Wildflowers 04)

Since I’ve started with the shitty series from V.C. Andrews (or her ghostwriter), I decided to tackle the last book in the series called Cat.

This is definitely the most disturbing of this series. Cat deals with issues that none of the other girls had to. This wasn’t arguing parents or legal disputes or even absentee dads.

She was forty-six years old and from what I understood, she had not been to a doctor for more than thirty years. She didn’t have to go to a doctor to give birth to me. I had been adopted. I didn’t learn that until . . . until afterward, but it made sense. It was practically the only thing that did.

As the story unfolds, we witness some serious psychological abuse from her mother. She grew up thinking her body and its functions are something to be ashamed of and her mother was afraid of anything physical of nature.

Book Reviews

Heaven, Texas – Susan Elizabeth Phillips Book Review – Worst book of the year award

I love the books of Susan Elizabeth Phillips. There was the one with the circus, the one with the southern belle trying to keep her house, the one with the unlikely on-set romance between a teen and an ageing co-star and then there were the Chicago Bulls all stars books which I wasn’t so thrilled about but read anyway.

Nobody’s baby but mine * Susan Elizabeth Phillips

Susan Elizabeth Phillips * Natural Born Charmer

It had to be you * Susan Elizabeth Philips

This latest Romance book I had to put down several times during reading as it bored the hell out of me with cliches but then I stuck to it last night and I finally managed to finish it. And yes, it did make me laugh a couple of times but mostly it brought up two ideas in my head.

Idea number 1: Some girls might use this as a guide to get a guy out of their league and it won’t go well for them

Idea number 2: While this might seem like a love story to some, I saw some really dark and disturbing things in it which (if tackled) would have made this a great thriller book.

Book Reviews

Little Girl Gone by Alexandra Burt Book Review

I had a busy weekend!  I devoured Leave Me Novel by Gayle Forman * Book Review and then I decided to pick the book next to it to see how it goes. The subjects were so similar that I had trouble writing my reviews as I kept on mixing them up. One deals with a mother leaving her children in order to escape and find herself, the other with another mother going through a severe case of post-partum depression whose girl goes missing and she is the prime suspect in a case of possible murder.

Book Reviews

The Woman in the Woods (John Connolly)

There would always be too few people in this world who cared enough to put themselves at risk for the sake of strangers, and too many who sought to inflict pain on the familiar and nameless alike

When I started reading this book, I had no idea it was part of a series with Charlie Parker, a detective, at its centre.

The premise is simple: Deep in the Maine woods, heavy rain leads to a disturbing revelation. The corpse of a young woman, her body perfectly preserved in a secret grave, is suddenly unearthed, raising a number of questions. Chief among them, what happened to her baby? Forensic analysts have determined that the woman gave birth to a child just before dying. The only clue, which may not be a clue at all, is a religious symbol left near the scene.

Private detective Charlie Parker is hired by a lawyer to shadow the police investigation and find the infant but Parker is not the only searcher. Someone else is following the trail left by the woman, someone with an interest in much more than a missing child…someone prepared to leave bodies in his wake.

Book Reviews

Captive Prince (Captive Prince #1) by C.S. Pacat * Crappiest Book of the year award

Oh my God. It’s been a while since I disgustedly threw a book out the window!

What the hell did I just read? I am used to smutty novels and BDSM is always in the books in the form of Fifty Shades or The Beauty’s Punishment but this book is a whole new level.
Slavery isn’t sexy. Corporal punishment isn’t sexy. Rape isn’t sexy, and it certainly isn’t entertainment. This book is utterly disgusting.
The story plot:
The main story goes like this: Damen is a prince and the heir to the throne of Akielos. But when the king dies, Damen is captured and bundled off to Vere, disguised as a slave, while his half brother takes the throne. Vere is an enemy to Akielos and Damen must continue pretending to be a slave if he wishes to live.

Enter Prince Laurent – heir to Vere and a pampered, spoiled and vindictive brat who becomes Damen’s new master. Laurent is extremely unlikable at first, but Pacat manages to successfully grow him into a well-rounded and eventually likable character.

Well, who needs plot anyways…

Book Reviews

Mermaids and other mysteries of the deep * Paula Guran

MERMAIDS-600The sea is full of mysteries and rivers shelter the unknown. Dating back to ancient Assyria, folkloric tales of mermaids, sirens, rusalki, nymphs, selkies, and other seafolk are found in many cultures, including those of Europe, Africa, the Near East and Asia.
Dangerous or benevolent, seductive or sinister – modern masters of fantasy continue to create new legends of these creatures that enchant and entertain us more than ever. Gathered here are some of the finest of these stories. Immerse yourself in this wonderful—and sometimes wicked—watery world!
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Dean Koontz Excerpts

About Child Abuse – Excerpt from The Door to December – Dean Koontz


2f590d1a06e5d88172ba5ce1e9adc4fdWhen I read The Door to December (1985) by Dean Koontz, the following piece struck a chord in me. So many children are abused and the monsters doing it to them rely on the child keeping silent and making them feel like it was their fault.